Friday, June 08, 2007
12:34 AM
juz know it. expected it. know good tinks wld not cum out fr mi. results out. as bad as usual. lost.
told most of them tat i dun care. but sad to sae i do care. n deep inside, i m damn worried.
but still hav to take the move to check the results myself.
dun tell mi to do better nxt time. coz i alwaes tell myself this ever since i start my education. but the results are still the same. to mi, such encouragement is useless.
tink i m juz wastin my Dad's money. spendin $6000 plus for juz a few mths of sch to study sum nonsense stuffs n get lousy results. accepted it. tink i hav sufficient courage to accept such fate.
sad. v v sad. juz sad. nuthin else.

aniwae watched Huan Huan Ai juz now on utube. its damn funnie n i simply luv it! but....i watched it at the wrg time. shd watch it after i hav checked my results. tink will lighten my mood abit bahz. now, dunno how to be happie abit. the moment i return to the chatbox, i will be even more depress. tink i cun deny i am having depression bahz. the moment i got my results, the first person i tink of telling is not my frens or family but Jessie. dunno y.

tml workin at OG Albert. juz luv the time working. though workin oso hav to worry n be stress abt my company's sales, but den i noe i m happie working.
after work gonna join BFG they all for supper at Pi's hse there. tink the topic of the nite will revolve ard results bahz. aniwae, i dun tink i mind bahz. they all did well. their hardwork r paid off. feel happie for them.

maybe i shd go slp now? yeap. i tink this is the best tink i shd do now bahz.

quoted fr DaDong's blog。quite match my feelings now.
走过多少个夜里 我想 我真的需要多一点的勇气
多一点 让自己能够在继续
就算生理心理 都能在继续
我很乐观吗 可能也只是在自己脆弱的内心里 外表希望假装坚强
假装的不去让人担心 让人不去发掘 我会时常带着微笑

except tat the following i cannot reallie promise myself tat i can do it.
是我不够努力 还是么能好好争取
是的
我会更加紧我的步伐 前进

是吗?我还会吗?

真。心话