Wednesday, May 14, 2008
4:00 PM
i made the wrg decision once again.
i din report to work todae.
earlie in the morning,
i felt my stomach cramp.
but it was not v serious.
not until tat i cun walk n work.
but i was having devil's tots.
i tot of skipping work todae.
n decided to go to the doc instead.
n having sorted out my tinkin
juz in case it cramps v seriously in the middle of the work,
i decided not to go to work.

n i waited for my turn at the polyclinic like almost 2.5hrs.
super duper long,
n i tink alot.
actuallie i m in quite a gd state.
not v v pain.
but wat am i doin here?
juz to get a MC?
i did not forget tat i hav incompleted tasks on hand
waiting for mi to get it done todae
n why m i so irresponsible
so bad tat i oni tink abt myself
so selfish. so stubborn.

ya. i m guilty.
i shdn't be staying at hm now.
i tink i m perfectly fine now.
no more cramp.
everytink is juz an excuse.
i m v v sry.
i guess.
i reallie do hav sum bits of responsibility wif
wat role m i playing now.
an intern.
so i shd be responsible n mature enuf to noe
wat is rite n wat is wrg.
Sry.
i promise this will be the last time.
i guess.
it will be retribution if my resume does not look gd.
for everytink is my own fault.
v v sry once again.
tml if i skip work n go to help out wif Isetan private sales,
my heart would not be there.
coz i noe.
no matter how much i hate n dread n dislike
i guess i reallie noe n understand
where i shd reallie belong now.
a million sry.

i will try my v best.

真。心话